Did you ever wonder how you got to be who you are today? Was it because you made that one decision on that one particular day that changed your lifes path forever or was it just always meant to be? Fate of sorts? The reason I ask is that I often question my life decisions. Should I have dropped out of school? Should I have left home young? Should I have left him earlier?
But then I remember That had I not done all of those things I wouldn't have what I have today, my husband, my daughters, my life. Would my life be horrible had I not made these decisions. I am so grateful for the life I have right now, I love my husband and my children and couldn't imagine life without.
In my 25 years I have suffered considerable heartache. I've lost a parent, a brother and most relatives. This caused my heArt to ache in ways that you feel like someone has pulled the rug out from underneath you and your world falls apart, this has effected me in ways that I cannot describe, it still effects me today, however these experiences whilst heart wrenching have been apart of structuring my life and making me who I am. Without them I once again question what my life would be today.
So my question to you is...would you change anything...
I love them, I miss them, I'd bring them back tomorrow if I could but my life is what it is and I LOVE it.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
WOW!!!
You know if you had of asked me 10 years ago whether I would even entertain the possibility of having a husband or children I would have laughed at you. I was NEVER having kids and marriage to me was no more then a piece of paper stating you belonged to someone....
10 years later.. I have a wonderful husband who I don't know how I'd live without and 3 beautiful girls and two step kids. So much for NEVER having children and NEVER getting married. When I was 17 and living out of home I found out I was pregnant with Myah (7). I didn't know how I was going to cope, we didn't have any money, I didn't even tell anyone I was pregnant till I was 31 weeks. But then when my mum found out as usual she came to my rescue and helped me gather all the stuff I would need to take care of my new little girl. The day I had her my life changed forever. She made me realise what true love was. I was still in shock... ME a MOTHER I don't know.
Myahs dad and I broke up when Myah was 10months old and I met the love of my life Scott. We had been together 3 years when the liveliest little bundle of joy joined our family.. Shelby. She has got to be one of the craziest kids I have met. She makes me laugh every day and continues to suprise me with how brilliant her mind is. She has a fantastic attitude to life and as long as shes getting her own way the whole house is happy.
7 days ago I gave birth to the newest light in my life. Stevie Elizabeth. She has opened my eyes to how much I can truly love a child. Even so young she makes me smile constantly. Being my third child all the 'rules' have gone out the window and i could quiet easily 'spoil' her and sit and hold her all day long. We are attempting some boob feeding with this little girl and she seems to really know what she is doing. Bottles are still helping with a top up.
I'm so proud of my precious family. I have created three miracles. Three miracles that I will treasure forever and ever. Three little girls that constantly amaze me and light up my life. Them together with my husband make my life complete.
10 years later.. I have a wonderful husband who I don't know how I'd live without and 3 beautiful girls and two step kids. So much for NEVER having children and NEVER getting married. When I was 17 and living out of home I found out I was pregnant with Myah (7). I didn't know how I was going to cope, we didn't have any money, I didn't even tell anyone I was pregnant till I was 31 weeks. But then when my mum found out as usual she came to my rescue and helped me gather all the stuff I would need to take care of my new little girl. The day I had her my life changed forever. She made me realise what true love was. I was still in shock... ME a MOTHER I don't know.
Myahs dad and I broke up when Myah was 10months old and I met the love of my life Scott. We had been together 3 years when the liveliest little bundle of joy joined our family.. Shelby. She has got to be one of the craziest kids I have met. She makes me laugh every day and continues to suprise me with how brilliant her mind is. She has a fantastic attitude to life and as long as shes getting her own way the whole house is happy.
7 days ago I gave birth to the newest light in my life. Stevie Elizabeth. She has opened my eyes to how much I can truly love a child. Even so young she makes me smile constantly. Being my third child all the 'rules' have gone out the window and i could quiet easily 'spoil' her and sit and hold her all day long. We are attempting some boob feeding with this little girl and she seems to really know what she is doing. Bottles are still helping with a top up.
I'm so proud of my precious family. I have created three miracles. Three miracles that I will treasure forever and ever. Three little girls that constantly amaze me and light up my life. Them together with my husband make my life complete.
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